What’s Going Through My Head Right Now!

So, I’m back!

This post is going to be super random, it’s an on the spot one, no planning, no pre shot pictures, literally just rolling out the camera roll.

It’s been a good few months, and Oh My God, things have changed! Let me fill you in before I crack on with my weird thoughts…

As most people know in 2017 I decided to take the plunge in to becoming a MUA. I’d been doing make up now and again since 2010 one shoots anyway, but never really thought about going pro. I did a course in 2015, started doing friends make up and here I am, with a budding and successful new business venture.

I have started having lip fillers by Jo Boyton, as my lips were one of my biggest insecurities. I plan to have another ml or more in June. I’ve had micro blading done by Laura Lou Gray, I went for the ombré style, this means hairstroke to shading .. I think? But on my god, I love my brows, and I hated them so, so much before.

Wedding photography bookings have more than quadrupled in the past 8 months, meaning starting from the end of this month, I’ll be shooting 2-4 weddings per week, and being part of couples biggest days of their lives. I’m happy with that!

What else has happened?! I have a new car! My Mini broke, I bought a dodgy BMW, now I’m in the soft top Audi club.

I have new hair! (Separate blog post coming up) but I’ve gone from black/grey to platinum blonde/grey, and I love it. All thanks to Hair By Jess…

Anyway, on with the thoughts…

I was doing the school run, and was looking around at all of the mums, just thinking ‘I wonder if they overthink things as much as I do’ So as I do, I spoke my thoughts and said to my friend Jess, I wish I wasn’t so weird, why can’t I just be one of these normal Mums’

They all look so normal! I wonder if they lay awake at night tossing and turning because they’re thinking too much and can’t shut down. I wonder if they ‘have’ to sleep on their partners side of the bed when they’re working night shifts because they might sleep better. I wonder if they iron every single piece of clothing in their household, or what if they don’t iron at all? Ya see, things like this bug me, and I find myself odd.

Do they look at me and think the same? Who even is normal these days and what is normal? I’ve had massive insecurity issues, and I’ll admit, I still do now, I still feel massively self conscious, but does everybody? To the extent that I do?

But then how do I feel insecure, if I can go three days out of 7 with wearing no make up at all, go to the shop with no bra on, pyjamas under my coat? Do other Mum’s do this?

I want so many answers to so many things. I want to know how to get rid of certain memories. And how to remember other memories for as long as I possibly can. Do other people struggle holding a full conversation when they have things on their mind, like I’ll just shut down, do a little mumble, agree and change the subject, people must think I’m a right sausage!

I honestly think I have about 4 people in this world that I can express my weird thoughts to, my besties and my fella, I know they’ll never judge, as much as I’m probably telling my readers right now and you’re all judging nine ways to Sunday haha! Maybe I’ll get some answers…

So there you go, I’m sure as soon as I post this I’ll think of more odd thoughts that I could’ve posted. Other than that, I’m happy and content at the moment, no drama, no negativity and no toxic people around me. I’m in happy land right now.

Peace out 💕

Hannah S.C x

Links

Microblading – Laura Lou Gray

Hair – Hair By Jess

Instagram – Hannah Smith Chilton

Wedding Instagram – Weddings By Hannah Smith Chilton

Eating clean & sticking to it

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Yesterday, I had my health check on joining Alpine Health Club, it was honestly, the most detailed health check I’ve ever had. I had sticky things stuck everywhere to check my fat/water/muscle I had blood pressure and lung checks, the results were scary..

My lungs and heart are both working perfectly, but I was extremely dehydrated, and had very little water in my system, and this worried me as I thought I’d been drinking enough water…I hadn’t..and this was the reason why my eyes felt so dry, I’ve been tired and just feeling generally sluggish.

So last night before bed, I drank 850ml of water, and woke up feeling refreshed and ready for my day. I started the day with some Alpen Granola and a cup of Pukka Cleanse Detox Tea.

Sugar has always been my downfall, I crave sugar, I have a sweet tooth rather than savoury…I’m one of those that would rather have ice cream for dinner rather than an actual meal. This needs to stop, and reading ‘Sarah Wilson I quit sugar for life’ has been such a good example on how I can actually quit sugar. The positivity from Sarah appears as a natural trait, I can’t wait to read more and carry on with a sugarless diet.

My advise on keeping to your diet, or healthy new lifestyle would be, keep a diary, a detailed diary of how your days been, how much you’ve craved your bad foods, why you didn’t choose to eat them, why you feel good or bad, and learn from your own diary. Think of where you would like to be in 12 months time, how fit and strong you want to be, and most of all, what mood you want to be in. Food is one of the main causes of what mood you are in..eat bad, feel bad..

So eat well, feel well and change your bad habits. I am!

Changing My Ways

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So over the weekend, I have been having a good think, maybe over thinking, but I have definitely come to a conclusion, and I hope that it’s the right one. When it comes to diets, I have to wait for the time to come to me, I can’t just say, “right, today I’m going to eat so well, and become a goddess!”, that just doesn’t work for me. So I wait, and all of a sudden wake up without a fat persons appetite. Today’s that day, for some reason, I woke up with a major craving for cucumber, so thought I’d mix it in to my water for the day.

Cucumbers amazing, it’s a superfood which explains a lot. It is rich in fiber, which will keep you feeling full. It’s an antioxidant, it works wonders for your skin, and helps your brain function normally too. So here we go, I’m gonna try this…

Oh my God…

I usually hate fruit infused water, as I think it’s like having a soft drink without the sugar…yuk. But this is completely different, super refreshing and tasty., and obviously I know mentally that it’s not a sugary fruit, so I’m not expecting the sugary taste. My new fave drink…

So I’m sure this can only help my weightloss journey. I’m not planning on losing weight on the scales, as I want to build muscle too, to be strong and fit, and it’s hard for some people to understand this when they ask how much weight you are losing..when they look at you in disappointment because you say you’ve lost 2lbs in your first week, don’t be disheartened, you know you feel better and stronger and that is all that matters.

Mentally, over the past 12 months, I have wanted to see every positive aspect of life, and drown out any negative energy. This means eliminating negative people from your life, luckily I’ve been able to do this without offending too many people. You may find Facebook to be the most negative place possible, constant upsetting posts pushed in your face daily from people passionate about things that you aren’t or don’t want to see. My solution, the ‘unfollow’ button, they don’t need to know your not following them and you don’t need to press that harsh ‘unfriend’ button, tadaa..problem solved.

Now you’re just left with the actual humans..the ones that moan, the ones that judge you out loud and make sure you know about it.
My solution…let it go in one ear, and out the other! There’s billions of people in this world, you are just one, everyone is different, we all have a dream and need to follow it regardless of what others think or say.

So that’s my positive note for the day, I have many changes to make starting from today…so go get drinking those cucumbers, and be positive!

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