What’s Going Through My Head Right Now!

So, I’m back!

This post is going to be super random, it’s an on the spot one, no planning, no pre shot pictures, literally just rolling out the camera roll.

It’s been a good few months, and Oh My God, things have changed! Let me fill you in before I crack on with my weird thoughts…

As most people know in 2017 I decided to take the plunge in to becoming a MUA. I’d been doing make up now and again since 2010 one shoots anyway, but never really thought about going pro. I did a course in 2015, started doing friends make up and here I am, with a budding and successful new business venture.

I have started having lip fillers by Jo Boyton, as my lips were one of my biggest insecurities. I plan to have another ml or more in June. I’ve had micro blading done by Laura Lou Gray, I went for the ombré style, this means hairstroke to shading .. I think? But on my god, I love my brows, and I hated them so, so much before.

Wedding photography bookings have more than quadrupled in the past 8 months, meaning starting from the end of this month, I’ll be shooting 2-4 weddings per week, and being part of couples biggest days of their lives. I’m happy with that!

What else has happened?! I have a new car! My Mini broke, I bought a dodgy BMW, now I’m in the soft top Audi club.

I have new hair! (Separate blog post coming up) but I’ve gone from black/grey to platinum blonde/grey, and I love it. All thanks to Hair By Jess…

Anyway, on with the thoughts…

I was doing the school run, and was looking around at all of the mums, just thinking ‘I wonder if they overthink things as much as I do’ So as I do, I spoke my thoughts and said to my friend Jess, I wish I wasn’t so weird, why can’t I just be one of these normal Mums’

They all look so normal! I wonder if they lay awake at night tossing and turning because they’re thinking too much and can’t shut down. I wonder if they ‘have’ to sleep on their partners side of the bed when they’re working night shifts because they might sleep better. I wonder if they iron every single piece of clothing in their household, or what if they don’t iron at all? Ya see, things like this bug me, and I find myself odd.

Do they look at me and think the same? Who even is normal these days and what is normal? I’ve had massive insecurity issues, and I’ll admit, I still do now, I still feel massively self conscious, but does everybody? To the extent that I do?

But then how do I feel insecure, if I can go three days out of 7 with wearing no make up at all, go to the shop with no bra on, pyjamas under my coat? Do other Mum’s do this?

I want so many answers to so many things. I want to know how to get rid of certain memories. And how to remember other memories for as long as I possibly can. Do other people struggle holding a full conversation when they have things on their mind, like I’ll just shut down, do a little mumble, agree and change the subject, people must think I’m a right sausage!

I honestly think I have about 4 people in this world that I can express my weird thoughts to, my besties and my fella, I know they’ll never judge, as much as I’m probably telling my readers right now and you’re all judging nine ways to Sunday haha! Maybe I’ll get some answers…

So there you go, I’m sure as soon as I post this I’ll think of more odd thoughts that I could’ve posted. Other than that, I’m happy and content at the moment, no drama, no negativity and no toxic people around me. I’m in happy land right now.

Peace out 💕

Hannah S.C x

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Microblading – Laura Lou Gray

Hair – Hair By Jess

Instagram – Hannah Smith Chilton

Wedding Instagram – Weddings By Hannah Smith Chilton

Fat To Flat | My First Week With Forza Supplements

Day 1 – 

Waking up at 6am is never easy for me, but with two under 5’s, a lay in is not an option. I knew today was going to be a big day though, so out of bed, get the children ready for school and settle them down with their Coco Pops. 

7am soon came and it was time for my first Shake It Slim, they honestly taste so good. The vanilla shakes taste just like melted ice cream, better than any meal replacement shake I’ve tasted. I then dropped the children at school, and set out for a run. I knew I was aiming for 3 miles, and thats what I did. It was tough, my chest hurt a little after and I felt like I had ripped all kinds of muscles under my ribs, but oddly my legs felt fine. It was a good run! 

12pm came, and it was time for another shake, this time I chose strawberry. The strawberry taste like those American shakes that taste again all Ice Creamy… Nom Nom Nom…

By 2pm, all the family were home, children playing, and Danny my other half decides to pop on some food/recipe videos on YouTube, you know, the ones that make you drool and froth from the mouth..Haha! After dribbling at the telly for an hour, it was 3pm and time for a small meal. I was feeling lazy today, so an egg and spinach protein pot from Aldi seemed ideal. 

Honestly, I feel amazing! I feel full of energy, chatty, not droopy in the slightest, I feel great. 
Lets see if I still feel the same tomorrow… 
Day 2 – 

Today is a Saturday, and still I am up at 6am!! Not happy… I wake up, jump out of bed, get ready for my day (make up takes an hour!), and make my shake, went for chocolate this morning, delicious! 

A morning of editing some photography for clients while being mum at the same time and I almost forgot to take my second shake on time at 12pm, but I did, and Strawberry it was, my second favourite flavour. 

I didn’t feel too well in the afernoon, so I prepared food for the family for the evening, then taken a long, hot bath and got straight in to my pyjamas at a nice early 4pm. 

No third meal for me today, as I wasn’t very hungry, so I had a third Shake It Slim. I haven’t felt hungry all day today. I will be honest though, I woken up in the middle of last night with major sweet cravings and had myself a little bit of chocolate. I felt awful for it after as I never eat in the night, but it satisfied my cravings, and I was back to sleep. 

So now, It’s 8pm, I’m having myself a white wine spritzer with soda water, and still not hungry but feeling great! 
So far so good!!! 
Day 3 –
I have been dreading today, it’s usually Sunday roast day, whatever shall I do. I’m not gonna lie my Sunday dinners are the best in the land, and I’m going to miss out, but think of those pounds I will shed.

Anyway, enough of dreaming of Yorkshire puddings, I woke up had my first Shake It Slim of the day, did my spring cleaning, some online promoting and a shop trip and before I knew it it was shake no.2 time. 

The rest of the day went on, I cooked Sunday dinner for Danny and the tots, and taken my plate round to my friend Jess who lives round the corner. I suprisingly didn’t miss it that much at all, and had another shake instead. I’m finding my cravings have gone, and knowing I’m getting more nutrients and vitamins with the shakes than what I would out of my usual meals gives me a great feeling.

So a day of three shakes and no meals, and I feel better than ever! I also weighed myself today, and I’m 4lb down from when I started with Forza 3 days ago, thats now 15lbs in total!!! 

Feeling gooooood!
Day 4 – 
Todays the first day of half term, so I have a whole week of being at home with the children. To resist the picking at their chicken dinosaurs and potato letters! I had my usual shake In the morning, followed by another at 2pm. Dinner tonight was chicken breast, asparagus and a handful of mushrooms. 

Today was totally easy, no hunger at all. I worked out to a Joe Wicks Hiit session on YouTube, absolute killer!! 
Day 5 – 

Woke up up at 6am, without any kiddies even waking me up, sat up, had a stretch and woke the children up, oh how different that felt. We went downstairs, I had my first Shake of the day and popped YouTube on to do a dance work out with Keaira LaShae (hope I’ve spelt that right), if you love urban music her dance workouts are the best.

A chocolate shake for my second of the day and soup was my choice for dinner tonight. 

I’ve had quite a down and moody day today, and not felt my best, literally anything would make me sad, but I’m human, and that’s allowed so on with tomorrow, lets hope I’m happier and not ripping people’s head’s off like today.. 

Day 6 –

Today, I was super busy in the morning and didn’t have my first Shake until 10am, this didn’t bother me as I was too busy to even think about eating or even drinking for that matter. Having my first Shake at 10am meant that I didnt really want another shake just a couple of hours later, so I decide to have a super light lunch at around 2.30pm of Tuna and cucumber followed by an apple.

Dinner for the evening was a grilled chicken salad.

There was no workout today as I was way too tired at all times of the day, and just couldn’t wait to jump in to my bed. Even when your trying your best to lose weight, you also need to rest and relax. So as Danny had moved the bedroom around before he went off to work at lunchtime, I thought what a perfect opportunity to relax, up went some fairy lights, on went some music, and I was in my chill zone. 

Day 7 – 

WEIGH DAY!!! 

Well, Forza supplements, you have done me proud, with your amazing tasting shakes, you have helped me lose… 

7LBS IN ONE WEEK!!! (4 inches in total)

I’m so happy, thats a total of 18lbs since 1st January 2017. 

As I have done shake diets before such as the Cambridge diet, I know that I you dont stick to it, and maintain a healthy eating regime afterwards complete with exercise, the weight will pile back on, and I know that from experience. This time around,im doing 3 weeks on,  1 week off, where in my 1 week, I eat regular meals 5 times a day. 

I will continue to keep you guys updated on my progress, and try to post pictures regularly…
Good luck to anyone out there trying to reach their weight goals! 
Thankyou to Forza Supplements 

Contraception! How The Depo Injection Affected Me!

As a teen, I taken my first trip to the Brook clinic in Birmingham to see what contraceptive options were best for me. I was put on Microgynon, my mood and body was completely changing, but with all that was going on in my life at the time, I just supposed that it would be natural to be feeling down. Moving out at 15, losing my nephew to a hit and run, falling out with parents, it wasn’t the best of times. I would cry myself to sleep, I’d rapidly be getting podgy, my boobs had grown in to melons, I had no clue that it was actually the pill that was contributing more than anything. I stayed on this pill for around two years.
I then decided to take myself back to the clinic to question my symptoms, they changed me on to Celeste, this was a little better I suppose, I still had minor depressive times now and again, but only around once a month. I stayed on this until I was around 26-27 and after forgetting to take it now and again, I decided I needed a change to something I wouldn’t forget.


When it comes to contraception, I would never usually think about the effects it would have on my hormones, until the doctor said ‘lets try the Depo injection’ which you have in the arm or butt cheek every three months. I thought this will be great, I can crack on with life, not forgetting to take pills again! Wahooo…

Yeah.. I thought wrong. OMG! The anger and rage episodes, feeling emotional at the smallest things, the paranoia, the anxiety and self insecurities and not to forget the weight gain…again! I also had my first panic attack in 4 years the other day, this was the last straw and got myself straight on the phone to the doctor to see when I was due my next as I just could not wait to get this thing out of my system. So today is the 6th Feb and my next Depo is due on the 15th! Yayyyy …Although I will not be having a top up, time to look for an alternative. I’ve heard so many stories about depression and mental illness that certain contraception can cause, and I think more checks should be carried out on the patient before a pill or injection can be given out. I feel doctors etc don’t look in to the patients past deeply enough. I have plenty of past in my doctors notes that should have questioned them giving out such hormonal contraception.

 

So after this, I’m going to sit down at a clinic with a specialist to talk through every option and talk about my past issues with what I’ve been given instead of a doctor just giving me a fourth option and saying, “Lets see how you get on with this” 😦

I want to hear about your experiences on any sort of contraception, how it affected you and what did you do to change? Are you happy with the option you’re on now?

E-Mail me at Hannah@lsamanagement.com at any time or private message me through any of my social media channels. Lets find out from each other how it affects us, and not just how it’s been researched.

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How I like to relax… 

My down time…
Usually appears around 7pm, i would have the children asleep by 6.30pm, then light a candle, pop on the Channel X playlist on Spotify, maybe kick back with a magazine and chill..

If I’m not listening to music, I’l be catching up on the Kardashians, i love my Kardashians! I like to make sure I don’t eat after 7pm too, if I do, it’s usually cheese to go with the odd glass of wine. Il have around 3 glasses a week, if I’m feeling awake enough by the end of the day, being up at 6am daily really isn’t my cup of tea! If I’m not drinking wine to chill out in the evening, I’m more of a squash girl, I hate hot drinks, so soft drinks are more my thing.

My new favourite candle by a mile has to be my new one from Imperial Candles… Not only does it smell beautiful, has two wicks and look gorgeous on my bedside table, but it also has a hidden piece of jewellery inside too which I can’t wait to see. Honestly, believe me when I say,  it smells AMAZING! 100 times better than my usual Yankee Candles too. 
A lot of people like to say a nice, home pamper session is their way of relaxing, I’d say that’s effort, and I’d much rather just lay, and do nothing! My cat always keeps me relaxed too, I love my Kitty cat 

So yeah, go relax, let tomorrow be tomorrow and just enjoy a quiet Now!

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Losing Lb’s and Loving Life 

 

So before asking you guys for your favourite fitness tips, I’m going to enlighten you in the past week of my changing life…
So I recently started having a crazy week of feeling motivated again after falling off the fitness wagon. I’ve made a few changes in my diet, my excersize regime and my life in general. I woke up on Monday (now Thursday) thinking, I’m feeling amazing today, time to change my lifestyle. And since then, I’ve lost 5lbs, yes..5lbs in just 4 days! No special pills taken, no detoxing teas, just a healthy diet and excersize.
I’ve started running for 1 hour each night, and eating a regular 5 meals per day, 2 of which are Ultraslim Chocolate Shakes from Tesco, with snacks like apples and cheesestrings in between.

Out of Slimfast, Atkins and Cambridge diet Shakes, Ultraslim are by far my favourites, and no, this isn’t a sponsored post..I’m just telling you what I love about the foods in my diet. If you have a sweet tooth, and don’t like the bland taste of regular Shakes, these sweet Shakes are for you. I have mine with Rude Health Organic Gluten free Almond Milk…The best!!

And that’s it, that’s how I’ve shed 5lbs in my first 4 days..

Now all I need to know is, how on earth do I make my butt perky without the squats, I want YOUR tips on some different butt workouts…
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Eating clean & sticking to it

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Yesterday, I had my health check on joining Alpine Health Club, it was honestly, the most detailed health check I’ve ever had. I had sticky things stuck everywhere to check my fat/water/muscle I had blood pressure and lung checks, the results were scary..

My lungs and heart are both working perfectly, but I was extremely dehydrated, and had very little water in my system, and this worried me as I thought I’d been drinking enough water…I hadn’t..and this was the reason why my eyes felt so dry, I’ve been tired and just feeling generally sluggish.

So last night before bed, I drank 850ml of water, and woke up feeling refreshed and ready for my day. I started the day with some Alpen Granola and a cup of Pukka Cleanse Detox Tea.

Sugar has always been my downfall, I crave sugar, I have a sweet tooth rather than savoury…I’m one of those that would rather have ice cream for dinner rather than an actual meal. This needs to stop, and reading ‘Sarah Wilson I quit sugar for life’ has been such a good example on how I can actually quit sugar. The positivity from Sarah appears as a natural trait, I can’t wait to read more and carry on with a sugarless diet.

My advise on keeping to your diet, or healthy new lifestyle would be, keep a diary, a detailed diary of how your days been, how much you’ve craved your bad foods, why you didn’t choose to eat them, why you feel good or bad, and learn from your own diary. Think of where you would like to be in 12 months time, how fit and strong you want to be, and most of all, what mood you want to be in. Food is one of the main causes of what mood you are in..eat bad, feel bad..

So eat well, feel well and change your bad habits. I am!

Changing My Ways

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So over the weekend, I have been having a good think, maybe over thinking, but I have definitely come to a conclusion, and I hope that it’s the right one. When it comes to diets, I have to wait for the time to come to me, I can’t just say, “right, today I’m going to eat so well, and become a goddess!”, that just doesn’t work for me. So I wait, and all of a sudden wake up without a fat persons appetite. Today’s that day, for some reason, I woke up with a major craving for cucumber, so thought I’d mix it in to my water for the day.

Cucumbers amazing, it’s a superfood which explains a lot. It is rich in fiber, which will keep you feeling full. It’s an antioxidant, it works wonders for your skin, and helps your brain function normally too. So here we go, I’m gonna try this…

Oh my God…

I usually hate fruit infused water, as I think it’s like having a soft drink without the sugar…yuk. But this is completely different, super refreshing and tasty., and obviously I know mentally that it’s not a sugary fruit, so I’m not expecting the sugary taste. My new fave drink…

So I’m sure this can only help my weightloss journey. I’m not planning on losing weight on the scales, as I want to build muscle too, to be strong and fit, and it’s hard for some people to understand this when they ask how much weight you are losing..when they look at you in disappointment because you say you’ve lost 2lbs in your first week, don’t be disheartened, you know you feel better and stronger and that is all that matters.

Mentally, over the past 12 months, I have wanted to see every positive aspect of life, and drown out any negative energy. This means eliminating negative people from your life, luckily I’ve been able to do this without offending too many people. You may find Facebook to be the most negative place possible, constant upsetting posts pushed in your face daily from people passionate about things that you aren’t or don’t want to see. My solution, the ‘unfollow’ button, they don’t need to know your not following them and you don’t need to press that harsh ‘unfriend’ button, tadaa..problem solved.

Now you’re just left with the actual humans..the ones that moan, the ones that judge you out loud and make sure you know about it.
My solution…let it go in one ear, and out the other! There’s billions of people in this world, you are just one, everyone is different, we all have a dream and need to follow it regardless of what others think or say.

So that’s my positive note for the day, I have many changes to make starting from today…so go get drinking those cucumbers, and be positive!

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