What’s Going Through My Head Right Now!

So, I’m back!

This post is going to be super random, it’s an on the spot one, no planning, no pre shot pictures, literally just rolling out the camera roll.

It’s been a good few months, and Oh My God, things have changed! Let me fill you in before I crack on with my weird thoughts…

As most people know in 2017 I decided to take the plunge in to becoming a MUA. I’d been doing make up now and again since 2010 one shoots anyway, but never really thought about going pro. I did a course in 2015, started doing friends make up and here I am, with a budding and successful new business venture.

I have started having lip fillers by Jo Boyton, as my lips were one of my biggest insecurities. I plan to have another ml or more in June. I’ve had micro blading done by Laura Lou Gray, I went for the ombré style, this means hairstroke to shading .. I think? But on my god, I love my brows, and I hated them so, so much before.

Wedding photography bookings have more than quadrupled in the past 8 months, meaning starting from the end of this month, I’ll be shooting 2-4 weddings per week, and being part of couples biggest days of their lives. I’m happy with that!

What else has happened?! I have a new car! My Mini broke, I bought a dodgy BMW, now I’m in the soft top Audi club.

I have new hair! (Separate blog post coming up) but I’ve gone from black/grey to platinum blonde/grey, and I love it. All thanks to Hair By Jess…

Anyway, on with the thoughts…

I was doing the school run, and was looking around at all of the mums, just thinking ‘I wonder if they overthink things as much as I do’ So as I do, I spoke my thoughts and said to my friend Jess, I wish I wasn’t so weird, why can’t I just be one of these normal Mums’

They all look so normal! I wonder if they lay awake at night tossing and turning because they’re thinking too much and can’t shut down. I wonder if they ‘have’ to sleep on their partners side of the bed when they’re working night shifts because they might sleep better. I wonder if they iron every single piece of clothing in their household, or what if they don’t iron at all? Ya see, things like this bug me, and I find myself odd.

Do they look at me and think the same? Who even is normal these days and what is normal? I’ve had massive insecurity issues, and I’ll admit, I still do now, I still feel massively self conscious, but does everybody? To the extent that I do?

But then how do I feel insecure, if I can go three days out of 7 with wearing no make up at all, go to the shop with no bra on, pyjamas under my coat? Do other Mum’s do this?

I want so many answers to so many things. I want to know how to get rid of certain memories. And how to remember other memories for as long as I possibly can. Do other people struggle holding a full conversation when they have things on their mind, like I’ll just shut down, do a little mumble, agree and change the subject, people must think I’m a right sausage!

I honestly think I have about 4 people in this world that I can express my weird thoughts to, my besties and my fella, I know they’ll never judge, as much as I’m probably telling my readers right now and you’re all judging nine ways to Sunday haha! Maybe I’ll get some answers…

So there you go, I’m sure as soon as I post this I’ll think of more odd thoughts that I could’ve posted. Other than that, I’m happy and content at the moment, no drama, no negativity and no toxic people around me. I’m in happy land right now.

Peace out 💕

Hannah S.C x

Links

Microblading – Laura Lou Gray

Hair – Hair By Jess

Instagram – Hannah Smith Chilton

Wedding Instagram – Weddings By Hannah Smith Chilton

Fat To Flat | My First Week With Forza Supplements

Day 1 – 

Waking up at 6am is never easy for me, but with two under 5’s, a lay in is not an option. I knew today was going to be a big day though, so out of bed, get the children ready for school and settle them down with their Coco Pops. 

7am soon came and it was time for my first Shake It Slim, they honestly taste so good. The vanilla shakes taste just like melted ice cream, better than any meal replacement shake I’ve tasted. I then dropped the children at school, and set out for a run. I knew I was aiming for 3 miles, and thats what I did. It was tough, my chest hurt a little after and I felt like I had ripped all kinds of muscles under my ribs, but oddly my legs felt fine. It was a good run! 

12pm came, and it was time for another shake, this time I chose strawberry. The strawberry taste like those American shakes that taste again all Ice Creamy… Nom Nom Nom…

By 2pm, all the family were home, children playing, and Danny my other half decides to pop on some food/recipe videos on YouTube, you know, the ones that make you drool and froth from the mouth..Haha! After dribbling at the telly for an hour, it was 3pm and time for a small meal. I was feeling lazy today, so an egg and spinach protein pot from Aldi seemed ideal. 

Honestly, I feel amazing! I feel full of energy, chatty, not droopy in the slightest, I feel great. 
Lets see if I still feel the same tomorrow… 
Day 2 – 

Today is a Saturday, and still I am up at 6am!! Not happy… I wake up, jump out of bed, get ready for my day (make up takes an hour!), and make my shake, went for chocolate this morning, delicious! 

A morning of editing some photography for clients while being mum at the same time and I almost forgot to take my second shake on time at 12pm, but I did, and Strawberry it was, my second favourite flavour. 

I didn’t feel too well in the afernoon, so I prepared food for the family for the evening, then taken a long, hot bath and got straight in to my pyjamas at a nice early 4pm. 

No third meal for me today, as I wasn’t very hungry, so I had a third Shake It Slim. I haven’t felt hungry all day today. I will be honest though, I woken up in the middle of last night with major sweet cravings and had myself a little bit of chocolate. I felt awful for it after as I never eat in the night, but it satisfied my cravings, and I was back to sleep. 

So now, It’s 8pm, I’m having myself a white wine spritzer with soda water, and still not hungry but feeling great! 
So far so good!!! 
Day 3 –
I have been dreading today, it’s usually Sunday roast day, whatever shall I do. I’m not gonna lie my Sunday dinners are the best in the land, and I’m going to miss out, but think of those pounds I will shed.

Anyway, enough of dreaming of Yorkshire puddings, I woke up had my first Shake It Slim of the day, did my spring cleaning, some online promoting and a shop trip and before I knew it it was shake no.2 time. 

The rest of the day went on, I cooked Sunday dinner for Danny and the tots, and taken my plate round to my friend Jess who lives round the corner. I suprisingly didn’t miss it that much at all, and had another shake instead. I’m finding my cravings have gone, and knowing I’m getting more nutrients and vitamins with the shakes than what I would out of my usual meals gives me a great feeling.

So a day of three shakes and no meals, and I feel better than ever! I also weighed myself today, and I’m 4lb down from when I started with Forza 3 days ago, thats now 15lbs in total!!! 

Feeling gooooood!
Day 4 – 
Todays the first day of half term, so I have a whole week of being at home with the children. To resist the picking at their chicken dinosaurs and potato letters! I had my usual shake In the morning, followed by another at 2pm. Dinner tonight was chicken breast, asparagus and a handful of mushrooms. 

Today was totally easy, no hunger at all. I worked out to a Joe Wicks Hiit session on YouTube, absolute killer!! 
Day 5 – 

Woke up up at 6am, without any kiddies even waking me up, sat up, had a stretch and woke the children up, oh how different that felt. We went downstairs, I had my first Shake of the day and popped YouTube on to do a dance work out with Keaira LaShae (hope I’ve spelt that right), if you love urban music her dance workouts are the best.

A chocolate shake for my second of the day and soup was my choice for dinner tonight. 

I’ve had quite a down and moody day today, and not felt my best, literally anything would make me sad, but I’m human, and that’s allowed so on with tomorrow, lets hope I’m happier and not ripping people’s head’s off like today.. 

Day 6 –

Today, I was super busy in the morning and didn’t have my first Shake until 10am, this didn’t bother me as I was too busy to even think about eating or even drinking for that matter. Having my first Shake at 10am meant that I didnt really want another shake just a couple of hours later, so I decide to have a super light lunch at around 2.30pm of Tuna and cucumber followed by an apple.

Dinner for the evening was a grilled chicken salad.

There was no workout today as I was way too tired at all times of the day, and just couldn’t wait to jump in to my bed. Even when your trying your best to lose weight, you also need to rest and relax. So as Danny had moved the bedroom around before he went off to work at lunchtime, I thought what a perfect opportunity to relax, up went some fairy lights, on went some music, and I was in my chill zone. 

Day 7 – 

WEIGH DAY!!! 

Well, Forza supplements, you have done me proud, with your amazing tasting shakes, you have helped me lose… 

7LBS IN ONE WEEK!!! (4 inches in total)

I’m so happy, thats a total of 18lbs since 1st January 2017. 

As I have done shake diets before such as the Cambridge diet, I know that I you dont stick to it, and maintain a healthy eating regime afterwards complete with exercise, the weight will pile back on, and I know that from experience. This time around,im doing 3 weeks on,  1 week off, where in my 1 week, I eat regular meals 5 times a day. 

I will continue to keep you guys updated on my progress, and try to post pictures regularly…
Good luck to anyone out there trying to reach their weight goals! 
Thankyou to Forza Supplements 

How to take fresh, Blog style images…

I love the fresh, clean look. Greys, whites, silver shades with a splash of colour somewhere…it just works. Sometimes, I like to theme my Instagram feed, and not have a dark image to break up the freshness, but sometimes its needed. 

As I used to work in studios a lot with photography, I loved harsh lighting, I dont know why, I just like the effect of it, and sometimes a hard shadow. Now with my blog and Instagramming, I like natural soft light for food and products, but still like the hard light on a good old selfie..it hides my blemishes well…and any imperfections. So when it comes to selfie time, my speedlight will come out I use my Canon 580ex II flash, there are so many out there that are cheaper so there’s no need to break the bank. 

With either food, flatlays or any other on-the-table bits and bobs, I will try to shoot this in daylight, making sure the shadowing sits right. With food, it’s usually better to shoot with the light at the front, so you can get nice detailing on it too. Side lit shots also work great, it shows depth but still great detail. 

flatlays work great shot right near a window, so the light is mainly above the lay.. I try to have my camera settings on ISO 100, my shutter speed set between 1/80 – 1/125 depending on natural light and how steady my hand is on that day… Then the rest is based mainly on what lens you are using. I use my Canon 50mm 1.8 prime lens, which can usually be found on EBay for around £50-£90…

So with my prime, I will shoot between 1.8-2.8 to get a nice depth in the image and a sharp, crisp focus. 
As my camera doesn’t boast a WiFi function, sometimes I will use my phone to do simple shots for Instagram, I have a Sony Xperia Z5 Premium 

Editing’s great, especially if lighting or croppings been a struggle…

My top editing apps available on Android/IOS –

  1. VSCOCAM 
  2. Afterlight
  3. Moldiv
  4. Facetune
  5. Photo Director
  6. Word Swag (for adding lettering) 
  7. BABYPICS (also for lettering) 

VSCOCAM has amazing filters, easy to create an Instagram theme with, really goit editing tools too…

Afterlight is also a great editing app, but I love this because you can add flame and flares like in the image below…Which has also been flipped using Moldiv as I can only take photographs on the one side of my face, its good to mix it up a little bit. .


Obviously if you’re more advanced, Photoshop and lightroom are great, but not easily uploadable for blogging and uploading to social media. 

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Mums That Design

So after being in our home for nearly two years, now is the time to start making a house a home. The joys of having children, mean that your time is often taken up elsewhere, and things you could do easily before are no longer so simple. So Friday, while my eldest was at school for the day, Danny, me and little Hunter headed to B&Q. 


  At the minute, I am obsessed with grey, silver and pastel shades, so I thought my luck would be in as this is all the rage right now. I thought wrong. I was so undecided, we couldn’t pick a wallpaper, we couldn’t choose a paint shade. So here I am, looking through Ideal Home magazine looking for more inspiration. 


 Again, instead of looking for paint shades, I’ve become distracted by a few bargains. A deck chair, which would suit my garden perfectly, £20, IKEA. A beautiful large, scented candle, £6.99, H&M. Just little things like that, make me want to head straight
to the stores.


So if you do find your children are holding you back from being stylish, think again, wait until it’s their bedtime, or even let them help, sit back, and inspire yourself with a magazine, shop your favourites online, and let the shopping do itself.


It’s just the decorations you need to get the daddy’s to do.